Kia-Killer!
LET'S BE NOTHING, I HEARD IT LASTS FOREVER
Lost. Broken. Shattered.Torn apart. Stumbling. Trumbling. Tripping. Slipping. Trying. Crying. Dying. Tourtured. Cold. Alone. Numb. Stumb. Deaf. Screaming. Begging. Undone. Forsaken. Betrayed. Fooled. Crushed. Smashed. Bashed. Fucked. Raped. Robbed. Ruptured. Ruined. Rage. Beserk. Cut. Bleeding. Choking. Cracked. Craving. Stripped. Killed. Buried. Erased. Forgotten. Abandoned. Falling. Faking. Fisted. Fading. Burned. Beaten. Bruised. Bannished. Pulled. Empty. Dry. Depressed. Done. Drowning. Dumb. Dull. Decay. Defeated. Disarmed. Dead.
"you never said forever could ever hurt like this"
Willow & Tara
när inte orden räcker till, när inte tårar har betydelse
när sorgen är så stark att alla känslor stängs av & ilskan tar över
mitt sätt att uttrycka mig och bearbeta smärta är genom ord, bild, musik, film osv.
och för att kunna beskriva mitt kaos har jag klippt ihop en video ifrån serien "Buffy".
om att förlora någon som var hela ens värld
här har ni mig:
[02:57] - "the girl is running on pure fury, I've never felt anything like it"
[05:41] - (panikskriket; det första som dök upp i mitt huvud när Kia berättade sanningen.)
[08:06] - "it took her light away, from me! now the one person who should be here is gone!"
[10:08] - "you're attacking the people who love you now?"
- "only the ones in my way"
[10:50] - "the only thing I had going for me, were the moments, just moments when she would
look at me, and I was wonderful.. and that will NEVER happen AGAIN!"
[15:30] - "if you lose someone you love, then the other people in your life who care about
you, will become meaningless? I wonder what she would say about that"
- "you can ask her yourself!"
I love you Kia.
Tolvslaget 2012-2013
Sis & jag söp & var svarthåriga på tolvslaget 2012-2013
(vi har aldrig påstått att vi inte är mongos)
